I am glad to hear you plan on moving and are protecting yourself. If there is a medical reason, the doctors are no doubt searching for it and monitoring him. You however, MUST put your safety and mental health as priority one right now (imho). It is good to hear you are feeling better and less shaky. It sounds like you've had a rough life in your youth dealing with these issues and are sticking to the promise you made to yourself those many years ago. Your life is precious and valuable (sp?). Like you said, one day at a time, baby steps will get you where you need to be! I am happy to hear you have friends who are there for you, that will make this road much easier to travel. ((((Hortensia)))).
Kitten Whiskers